i've been getting into really weird music lately...so weird that i have to step back and think "do i like this because i'm a music major, or do i like this because it is awesome?"  its usually awesome.

megan: get into Perrey and Kingsley!!!  it is the PERFECT driving music...it makes everything turn into an arcade game. i love you, and i want to see you, before we grow into completely different people and only have our bowels to talk about buahahaha

CALEB: when in the heckmas will i be able to see you again?!

well!  i swapped rooms with jessie!  so the apartment is looking lovely!  i will be leaving for FL in one week!!! how exciting! i havent been to the beach in about 3 years.  gosh

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I've had my ipod on shuffle.  This is quite dangerous because my music taste is insane....anyway, I'm growing out of my 'button pushing' phase...I haven't clicked the "next" button on my ipod for about 4 days.

Alllright!!! muchas cosas interesantes!!
first off..lemme just tell you about the farmers market today.:
glorious food. squash, tomatoes, watermelon, mint plants, peaches, honey, figs, and friggen BOILED PENUTS.  i know...ew boiled penuts, right...WRONG way good.
i planted my mint plant and it's so adorable...im excited. 
Torrent sites have recently ejaculated a music explosion onto my computer...involving:
-ween's entire discography
-the soundtrack to Pixar's Up
-Badly Drawn Boy
-Grizzly Bear
-Sonic Youth
-Ananda Shankar...like i needed any more
-Perrey and Kingsley
and many others...AMAZING

also, there have been many movies I've been introduced to, such as:
Eyes Wide Shut (loved it...and fantastic music)
Religulous (Bill Mahr's attack on religions...not bad, funny moments, though takes a crazy turn)
Krull (1980's sci-fi involving terrible effects, medieval people and castles, ...and aliens....yes, aliens)
and the best of all:
Young at Heart!!!!!
Best documentary I've seen all year.  SOOOO AMAZING. SOOO sad, and wonderful, and happy.
Oh gosh, i makes me want to laugh and cry all at the same time.
Everyone must see this.
Old people being active in a community choir run by a hip younger guy...the director has them sing songs by James Brown, Coldplay, Sonic Youth, and the BeeGees. 

July has been a great month, and continues to give me great experiences.  I hope it's doing the same for everyone else!

this month has been amazing. i usually associate july with extreme southern DIScomfort, and ravenous mosquitoes, however, this month is nothing like that.  Glorious July things: 
*watched heat lightening storms until 1 am while telling creepy dreams/ghost stories. 
*maintaining a high A for my evolutionary biology class (which I love)
*extreme water balloon fights
*"road trip" to Tupelo to see a dance show. glorious and beautiful. (also getting lost in tupelo and knowing that i hate that city)
*driving around the square blasting Perrey and Kingsley while blowing giant bubbles out the car, while making hilarious comments at the drunks, but the comments werent even the funniest thing to see...the drunks LOVE bubbles and freak out in order to touch them.
*Staying up until 4 am watching Planet Earth's Sea movies...

i'll type more soon. 

Shows:
Gosh.  This summer has caused my shoulders to turn tense.  Iolanthe and the rest of Shakespeare Festival is finally finished!  Iolanthe was amazing and fun.  As the shows continued, the cast got crazier and crazier.  First we started with a game of "blowdarts", in which if you are blowdarted, you immediately have to fall dead.  You may return to life once someone has touched your ear.  Very fun, especially when you are supposed to be dancing around on stage as a fairy.  Last show, the condom was passed.  Someone got a gold-wrapped Magnum Extra-large condom.  The goal was to pass it to everyone in the cast before the show ended.  Mission Accomplished. 

School:
Summer school is awesome.  Few people in the class, laid-back atmosphere, what else could you ask?  I'm now onto the second summer term.  Evolutionary Life Biology is probably one of the best classes I've taken.  It's been four years since my last Biology, but I remember a lot. Looking forward to the environmental porion of the class.  Outdoor classrooms are exciting.

Memphis:
I feel like I've severely neglected Memphis...not on purpose, but just because I can't go back home until after summer school. I prefer it here though.  Though the town-folk of Mississippi aren't the best at times, the town itself is 90% of the time glorious.  Mimosa trees are in full bloom.  Plus, there's something really nice about going grocery shopping at a farmer's market, where apples aren't coated with wax and cucumbers aren't dented from mean Kroger shoppers.

Exciting things:
Ole Miss Choir Trip will either be to Germany, Austria, and Amsterdam OR Paris and Italy.  Either one would be totally fine with me.  A week long trip to Eurpoe for 3 thousand isn't bad.  Especially when that includes airfare, hotel, and food.   Happiness
Oh!  And I got an extra Opera scholarship!  I still find it ridiculous that I have to pay out-of-state to go to Ole Miss, if i live in Memphis...60 miles away. grr

So after reading all of the twilight books in two weeks...i was bombarded with this rush of OH-MY-GOD-WHAT'S-GOING-TO-HAPPEN-TO-THESE-LOVERS?!?!? and now that I'm done with them, I kind of don't know what to do with myself. I watched the movie.  Sucked.  But despite the suck-age, i keep thinking about the movie because it's like the closest tangible thing i have to the story?  i dont know.  but i do know that it took me until reading twilight, that i realized how lonely i feel lately.  not just in the lover-sense, but in the family and friends sense. I think it's because I didnt really have much of a summer, and im in a transition period, of sorts.
So, in order to fill this gaping hole of what-do-i-do-with-my-life-now, I've been trying to jump into my schoolwork...which i'm ahead in.  and I'm trying to read a new book (which is actually starting to pick up a lot now). 
I think this manic reaction to a fictional, impossible story also has to do with the fact that my show is over until February.  I became so obsessed with Lost that now that I don't have it...I'm searching for a new show or something.  I really don't like this feeling of searching.  
Oxford Shakespeare Festival is coming along nicely.  Though I still feel a bit behind on that.  There are a lot of things that I'm not good at/amateur at, that i will have to overcome.  such as reading lines (which i've never done before).  I feel like everyone is waiting for me to ooze out this over-the-top acting (like everyone else is doing, since it is Gilbert and Sullivan)  and i just don't have the confidence to be that ridiculous yet.  hopefully it will get there.  Oh and the other thing that we're having to do....DANCING.  ballet style.  what the hell. I can barely remember two pages of dancing...let alone three numbers of dancing.  
I have a headache.  all this emo-ness is hurting my head.   

now that sophomore year of college is finito...all is well in the world..
or it should be

but all i can think about is post graduation.  i have a very detailed plan as to what i'm going to do after senior year as an undergrad...but i'm always left with this feeling like i need to be doing something.  sometimes i wonder if its my complete lack of relationships.  b/c those things seem to keep everyone pretty occupied...while i'm restless.  though i'm not saying i'd want that kind of occupation as a girlfriend, b/c i'm bad at that.  it's just crazy to think about all the free time and me-time i have as a single person.  no one to answer to.. so that leaves me with this sense of "what do i study now?" ..."am i in the right carreer path?"..."I want to redecorate my apartment"  such things are a bother.

I only spent a week of my summer in memphis...now i am here in oxford about to take on summer Biology.  and i'm actually looking a little forward to it.  crazy sterf. 

read those twilight books in under 2 weeks.  great books, though i felt a little childish.  the movie was shit.  of course.  i am now reading House of Spirits by Isabelle Allende.  Then onto Lullaby by Palahniuk.  and so on.

just thought i would update. 

update.

school :harder than ever.  skimming by with an A in theory.  thank god!  stressed out to the max, but thus is life.  i've decided i want to continue my studies at North Texas University and get a degree in music therapy.  (while singing jazz too, of course)

job:  have no real job.  however, im getting paid to sing at this church for easter.  $125 for the easter mass and 15 for each rehearsal i attend (like, 18 rehearsals i think) 

family:  disctance makes me feel closer to them.  isnt that a funny paradox.  april and i are the only girls in my family left that arent pregnant or knocked-up.  the pressure's on for april.  although she doesnt seem to be pressured. thankfully

boys: unnecessary.  :)  i've never been like this.  i'm feeling like i'm so efficient by myself that having a boyfriend would make me not as ...me?   anyway.  this semi-stalker guy asked me out on a date over FB which itself is pretty awkward b/c he NEVER talks to me in classes we have together.  i think its crazy when guys confess huge things over FB like, we should date and i like you's.  if you can't tell me in person, then how in the world do you think we could have a date that won;t turn awkward....nearly impossible. 

body:  trying this whole not-eating-cow-thing.  i feel a lot less heavy, not like weight heavy, just different.  like my moods are lighter, its easier for me to wake up, etc.   ive been working out at least 4 days a week.  which is nice

i saw watchmen.  i have mixed feelings.  they definitely could have chosen a better Veidt, and the girl got on my nerves too...but she got on my nerves in the book as well, so she is slightly forgiven.  slightly.  they changed the ending.  i feel like a lot of these action movies have too many pointless elements that are meant to attract male audiences.  like abnormally long sex scenes.  but overall it was good. 

spring break soon woooohooooo!

i probably shouldnt be on this thing, considering i have a LOT of homework for next week i need to do...
but whatever...thoery can suck it

ok so, music theory is basically the bane of my existence.  lemme just tell you...its 5 days a week.  only three credit hours.  there is an outside portion to this class where you have 5 assignments due a week,,,(so basically another class rolled into one);  we have these things called Atonal fridays, where we study atonal music only and we have separate homework for that every week (another class rolled into this one);  on Mondays and wednesdays, we study music analysis (which is where you look at sheet music and based on the notes on the page, you analyze what the composer is doing with each and every note on the whole effing thing...JESUS) and on Tuesdays and Thursdays we study sight singing and ear training (you look at a excerpt from a song, and without anyone playing it...you sing it,  this is probably one of the hardest things you'll ever attenpt to do) and ear training is where the teacher plays a series of pitches and you have to be able to tell what intervals are between each and every note...GAHHHHHHHHH.  so basically this is like 10 classes in one friggen hour a day.  and only three credit hours?!!!?!??!?!!?  FUCK YOU MUSIC DEPARTMENT.  im going to kill myself this semester.  either that or just run off of nothing but adderral and caffiene...not really.  ill just smoke meth.

SUPER hottie in three of my classes.  Looks like Javier Bardem.  only younger. 

speaking of javier bardem...everyone should see this new woody allen movie called Vicky Christina Barcelona.  IT IS AWESOME...and one of the few movies that i like penelope cruz in,  for some reason i cant really handle her in most movies...she always plays the irrational, yelling, fast-talking spaniard...and she just has this look to me, that screams "im a coke head"   maybe thats just me...but in Blow, i felt she was kinda playing herself...heehee

trying to be more creative with my writing.  not really working when you have school running through your head 24/7.  

AND i havent even started voice lessons...which means more work for la nina.  whateva...i'll make it.  i just hope to god i can still carry a 4.0...but this semester will be the hardest yet. 

reading the oddyssey for english...hard to get into.  but certain parts are entertaining.  and other parts make me think how much it would have sucked to live back then.  they go into extreme detail about making a sacrifice to the gods.  it starts off with this guy pulling the cow to this bonfire kinda thing by its hair.  and ripping the hair off her head with his bare hands and throwing it into the fire.  they talk about slicing the cow's head off with one blow and blood rushing out all over the people and weird shit.  then cutting off the cow's legs and throwing them on the fire with the barely alive cow.  WTF.  Im glad sacrifices have for the most part gone out of style. 

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